The last hope..

 

Never saw the sun shedding a tear 

Nurtured by heaven,embraced by winds

the drop of rain ever pleased my ears.

Standing with the sand of memories in my palm..

Trying to restrain their limits,as they lose the charm..

The more known faces I fancy,the deeper I go in agony..

does it portend my self destruction ?

The image I see beyond sanity,has become invincible long ago

I am losing my beingness in the lustrous glow.

The doors are shriveling,my hope is lingering in the advancing glumness.

The constant sound of dripping has made me helpless...

wholly unaware of the moment lying in wait.

Her life seems to play with her fate..

I wish the time had dilated forever..

Tears welled up my eyes,with the world falling apart.

lost somewhere in the shattered parts

I wish to bid final goodbye,as her soul departs..

Lost !

Totally lost,totally blank..

My conscience keeps telling me where I stand..

no roads,and no purpose..

Im lost in the crew of million strands..

The roof is touching the floor,life is knocking the shrinking door..

I wanna be free,I wanna make a choice..

I wanna be alone,and hear my inner voice..

concavity in ideas,and cognizance of oneself

faith is all I need to revive myself..

That's the way life goes

Origin of countless dreams..surplus desires..
prone to triumph..atonement conspires
That's the way life goes..
Like a million dreams lightning the fire..
Running through your face,shaping transient trace..
Time to rewind,time to recollect memories
The life we lived,like in aviaries
defined realms,though as free as a bird..
We started our life as a nerd..
Fate blew the trumpet,and desires overruled limitations
Life is like a music..
with every drop of falling rain,the music falls
fills the air with colors,with a gentle crescendo..
like a stream of butterflies..
Like a placid music,and a warm reprise..
time awaits for the finale..
the day ..the music will die..
that's the way life goes..
evident,yet cryptic..

A dreamer

This is about my story,this is about my life.

This is where i stand,all alone in the darkness.

There is grief,there is pain and everything seems to linger.

I am going sick,i am going insane

pain and sufferings,will last till the end

Feel the wind through your ears,trying to explain fatalism

touching the reality,beyond realism.

I need a shoulder to cry,I need a heart to survive.

I need love to sustain life,i need emotions to feel.

I don't want you to die,I am a dreamer

I dream my life,with love everywhere

passionate enough to survive.

Here i am ,lying on my bed.waiting for my lover

to touch my world,shatter the walls and feel love.

I walk alone,thinking about my life

filled with darkness,long enough to survive

Tear walks away,far off the heaven

Stealing emotions, with a spell of betray.

I can still feel the touch,same forever.

I am there for you,now or never.

Still feels like the first day together.

Same scent of innocence,same smile,same candor

same feelings,same you and same me.

Though its a dream,a divine will

It may take me off this myth.

I want to be careless,i want to live

I want a life,like lovers live.

No one cares,not even a tear..

Makes me weep,to aggravate my fear.

I imagine my pain,I imagine my thrust

I am just a dreamer,I can see night

little scary,with a dust of surprise.

I can see light in tiny pieces of mirror,

I want to keep it,in my heart forever.

Birds are chirping outside as i write,

Sense their guile,they seem to be as innocent as your smile

World has become an unsolved enigma

Sins and sufferings have defied souls with stigma

Take this world beyond the realm of pain

Sense the haunt of darkness and its reign

Piece by piece

Pointing your finger at belittling fire..

Standing on a cloth soaked in blood..

Covering your face with lifeless leaves.. 

Sitting on the grave of your own previous birth…

Trying to rip off the veins, to alleviate the pain..

Crying out loud, to feel the limit of annoyance..

At every degree of translation, the pendulum keeps dragging me back to reality..

Feels like the era of failure has progressed from possibility to actuality..

Every cause of an upshot makes it more confound..

Sand from my palm has begun falling on the ground..

Why can’t admiration go well with creation?

Needless to say, I am trapped in a world of punk heads..

Their contempt has entrenched me with dread..

I can’t smell the mud, wetted by rains..

I can’t see light, shadowed by pain..

Touch me.. Am I not dreaming? 

Why does everything goes the way it’s meant to be? 

I saw thou crying in the cave of solitude,Are you breaking down..?

Try seeing the brighter side of darkness,

it may oblige your creator to bestow mercy upon thee.

God.. faith or myth ?

These were the words of god for me " I never knew I could kill her,just because i love her so much."You see,this is a perfect example of innocence blended with guilt.You need to understand that love doesn't need physical presence.It's just a feeling of being cared and made to feel special every moment in life.I know you'll never be able to face me again because you have lost it.Finally,I can say that even god is like one of us,susceptible to errors and far from perfection.

Firefly..

I love myself because I loved my life..

But how does it feel to be standing at the edge of dubiety..

hard to comply because I share my fate with a firefly..

Little lights on their forehead..

they carry pain and sorrow,with happiness..

hard to face death,when you know it has become obvious..

do they really care ?


do they see darkness,despite carrying light ?

hard to live,when you know your own plight..

they do carry hope for a child..

sees the blinking lights,right behind the lid of their eyes..

They want to wake up,just like the night left them in dreams..
time is running,sand watch comes to scene..

I want to live till the closing curtain falls..

well engulfed in fantasies,I'm afraid to come out..

I shed tears,even when the eyes become numb

I used to adore life,for being a chum..

She...

Her way of talking -awesome..

her disposition - cool.. 

the way she says hi - divine ..

the way she cares for u-priceless ..

the way she makes a choice- uncomparable.. 

the way she touches ur heart - painless..

the way she loves u-endless..

 

I Wish I was there..

As you sit in the field of flowers overflowing with colors and love..I
see ur smile playing with the scent of the flowers...I wish I was
sitting by your side..holding every moment flowing with the breeze..breaking
every drop of silence in the air..the glowing flame of desire will make
its way through the novel flowers and make me love you till the end..

 

 

Your love your sacrifice..

Saw a multitude of many shades..

most of them were leaning towards frivolity..

earnestness seems to be lost in translation..

all they care about is success and complacence..

where has the feeling of trustfulness gone ?

deceived by destiny,left alone in darkness..

I see a man turning gray with eyes casting off glumness..

Deeply,passionately moved by love,he infixed himself into a ruse.

Every inch he jaunted,the trap became more bemuse..

chicanery is at pinnacle,faux innocence never shed a clue..

treasured every moment with passion and love..

Adhering to the inevitable,he had to follow the destiny..

Went to the world of unknown faces and vague sanity..

skipped every heartbeat meant for his lover.

Lost in time,like an fanciful dreamer..

time arrived to unite himself with her soul..

Traveled across the border with a feeling of exuberance..

time has come to meet my lover and make her mine forever..

Wind is as quiet as a sleeping child..

unaware of the awkward silence of the sky..

I was lost in the scent of feminism and fantasies kept ticking my mind..

splendid smile and long hair cascading down her shoulder..

O God ! The drops of romance in the air,made me shudder..

time has traveled back to retrieve its charm..

To my utter dismay,it was lost in crew..

Mysticism had seized my conscience..

Life is like a stage show of different persona..

Same body,same soul and same aspirations..

But every time with a different role to play..

She is gone..Oh no! she is gone..

With a quirk of fate,everything turned gloomy..

The show is still on,trust me my brother..

We cry,we suffer,we live and we enjoy..

That's the glory of life..

Someday she'll touch the ground,someday she'll cry with you..

One day she'll realize,she left an angel like you..

Am I the one ?

Beyond the sea I see a Lucifer..

healing the days with tempted disguise.

beyond the world I feel the pain

getting numb with a trail of revenge..

Is it you who is touched by Jesus?

Is it me who got the stigmata signs ?

He will bless everyone with power and courage..just show your face to the world..

Let the sand decide your fate,give this world a glimpse of austerity..

Make yourself futile and bewitched by your own innocence..

Learn to touch your own feet.

Respect yourself and trade your fate with eternity..

The power existing here has come to an end..

Wear your own destination and touch the rising sun..

Bury your reluctance and kiss your identity..

I know one day we all die,do somethings to leave your odor..

smell the fruit of sufferings and make this place a better home..

inside out

Take the best of me,coz m overflowing with emotions..

Don't make me cry,because  I am filled with misery..

love me as much as u can,because I lie sumwhere between your dreams and your faith..

The cloud needs to pour its sins and regrets,it has made the land look old with no life..

apologies need to be admitted as we are the beginner,we are the thief..

We steal the love from clouds and throw them in grief..

Time has come to search your mind,search for freedom search for equality..

search for love devoid of infidelity..

I am in your eyes,I am in your mind..see yourself and make your heart mine..

time ends in no time,wish it halts..its all i need,to find myself and my faults..

can an answer be a question to its own question ??

we are trapped in a vicious circle,just figure out where to go..

always choose the toughest path and love yourself..

it will be beautiful,that's how its meant to be..

Story of my life..

I kept on washing the blood,but there was no wound..

I kept on staring at myself,but there was no mirror..

I  thought about my future,but there was no present..

Am I running away from something??

Here it goes,the story of my life

The day I saw my mother,i looked into her eyes..

She was like a goddess,who blessed my soul with life..

I felt her touch,i felt her love..

She was the one,yes! she was the one..

who filled happiness and rejoice..

The day I went to school,I saw books..

Tried to gain wisdom,from paper made of wood..

Then began the college life..full of zeal,full of surprise..

What not to do,I could not explain.I was lost in the clouds of heaven.. 

Fell in love,could not express..

Like a country bumpkin,always tried to impress..

Did not acknowledge how life changed,met a girl and sadness restrained..

relished every moment with love and passion,

I made my tears fall like rain from heaven..

Here I am,lying on my bed..thinking about my dreams and my past life..

I wish to go back,i wish to meet my goddess..

She taught me how to love,how to live and realize your dreams..

How can you leave me,when you were my dream...

Humanity touching heaven..

I'll go beyond the limits,i'll go beyond the sea

I'll live in the mountains,i'll play with mud..

I'll bath in snow,i'll sleep with the rivers..

I'll kiss the morning sun,i'll heal the murky nights..

The glory of nature wont go unnoticed..i'll treasure every moment..

I'll live with unknown people,i'll make love with skies..

nature has its limits,i'll make them mine..

I want to fly with the birds,I want to wax my temptations..

I want to welter my emotions,to leave humanity and attain salvation..

I wont come back,i dont care..

I just want a fruit,to make my life fair..

I want to feel insanity,i want to taste every moment

I want to know unknown people,after i reach heaven..

Gates of the blue sky are unfolded,take me beyond the realm..

Drown me in love,touch my innocent life..

Hallow my soul in heaven,dats a wish..

I dont want to touch the ground and deceive winds..

I'll lie in wait,till the morning arrives..

to regain my identity and end my life..

Freedom at the cost of emotions

As I sense the summer breeze from heaven

striking the leaves to absolve them  and drop them to a new destination,

I acknowledge its fate with a vague conclusion..

The breeze wants to set them free and make their own destiny.

It wants them to live free and feel the world with no fetters..

But can leaves fall in love with the breeze? 

even if its presence is short lived,can they develop emotions?

Do they need to give up emotions to live free?

Is it obligatory to give up emotions to think and live freely ? 

The aim to absolve the leaves and drop them to a better place is still ambiguous..

As the breeze keeps on lingering every moment,it may either drop them in hell  or may leave them at the door of heaven..

Is the breeze free ?

Considering its own plight,should it give up all the emotions to live freely..

Freedom at the cost of emotions,is it justified ?

Standing in the middle of nowhere...

My hope and faith is sandwiched between the reality of pragmatism..

as long as the waves of hope keep touching my soul,i will keep trying..

At last,either i'll stop trying,or emotions will come back..

It feels like i'm sitting on the grave of my past life

waiting for it,to rise from ashes..

among hundreds of depressed and frustrated souls

i see myself,becoming one of them..

where has the innocence gone ?

aroma of faith seems to linger every moment..

pain and aggression has made me weak and incoherent..

i can only understand faces and identify people to interact..

may be my sub-conscious mind has a better solution to it..

but why is it so difficult to adhere to reality while you are in a trance state?

Sometimes we say things that may sound obnoxious

You need to realize the profoundness of pain around you

before you make an attempt to prove yourself..

Life is not about proving your excellence..

It is about developing an attitude,

that is socially and psychologically acceptable..

Every moment every breath..~for my love~

The first time I fell in love..
 

I knew it was eternal and its still impregnable

The first time i looked into your eyes..

 I knew i'll never drown again

and I still see my world in your eyes..

The first time I felt your aura clinging to my breast..
 

I knew the time has ceased

and I am still lost in ecstasy..

The first time we kissed..

 I knew the touch of your lips will warm my soul..

and i still burn with desire..

Ever since the last time I missed you..

time has become so unfair..

tempts me to die every moment and resurrect..

to make me fall in love again and again..

First day of the semester

As I sit in a class full of enthusiastic and unknown faces
 

 I can sense the words hovering over my conscience.

everything seems to be strange and sadistic.

This one hour has become an infinite array

and anxiety is tickling my stomach every now and then.

I want to reunite myself with myself and recognize myself again..

Is it really helpful to listen to all the futile words that have lost their glory ?

I want to be free..

I just want to follow my dreams and make my own destiny..

life ain't about following a mundane protocol..

just honor your faith and live free..

that's the essence of life...